Remember when you asked
“Is there someone else?”
I lied
I’m not a good person to be with
I’m too used to flirting with disaster
I just want things to move faster
Cause I’m too busy trying to outrun my past
That’s why these things can never last
Remember when our parents met?
And talked about you? About me? About us?
I squirmed
I’m not a good person to get involved with
Ever since I was a kid I’ve moved around from place to place
And I’ve never really figured out how to just occupy my space
I’ve always left, moved on, hoping my heart could keep pace
I’ve never really learned how to just own my face
Remember when we stopped falling, and started being?
When we were on the edge of stability?
I tried
But I’m not a good person to get involved with
Or maybe I’m just not a good person to begin with
Maybe you should start with someone else
Maybe it’d be better to your health
I wish you the best, I’ll drink to this
For us to be together, someday (when I’m not a mess), is my fondest wish
Remember when we stopped falling, and started being?
When we were on the edge of stability?
I tried. I didn’t know then, but I was scared. I couldn’t take that last jump. So I found excuses. So I ran.
Remember when our parents met?
And talked about you? About me? About us?
I squirmed. Because I was thrilled… but I’d never been to that place.
I’d never had something so real enter my space.
I had run here, but my heart hadn’t kept pace.
And now I’ve realized, so my steps I retrace.
Remember when you asked
“Is there someone else?”
I lied.
I never told you.
There isn’t
Remember when I hurt you senselessly
And you couldn’t understand why?
You couldn’t have
Remember when I hurt you senselessly
And you couldn’t understand why?
You couldn’t have, because I didn’t either
Notes:
I think this gestated for a while in response to a question I was asked.
